There are a lot of stuff that I've been/am working on right now (see my "To Draw List" on the front page) but work has been pretty busy and crazy with longer hours, so I haven't got a chance to sit down and draw after coming home. I worked on some bits and pieces on the Tapion drawing for a friend of mine and some of my other stuff, but most of the time, I crashed. I feel like I'm on slump, but to be honest, I think I'm just extremely eager to move on to drawing things other than DBZ stuff. I realized that I really miss my "Enfilade" stuff; couple of weeks ago, I was hanging out with Gerald and I told him that I might be getting this slump because all I've been drawing was DBZ fanart, and I've been stressed out and depressed for not getting many viewers and acknowledgement just because my stuff isn't in Akira Toriyama style. That's when I realized that maybe my body is telling me that it's time to move on and going back to drawing my original stuff, "Enfilade", the story/show that I've been working on since college. I'm very happy that some people actually appreciate my "style" and they like seeing DBZ stuff drawn in mine instead of Toriyama's style, but majority of the fans absolutely hate it. I'm pretty much an "outlaw" for not drawing DBZ fanart in Akira Toriyama style; most people think they look like piece of shit just because I draw them in my own style. I used to be so stressed out and depressed about this fact, but not anymore. Now that I finally realized what I'm supposed to do, I don't feel shitty about it; instead, I feel relieved. My boss at work has been telling us to come up with ideas for shows that we could sell and work on; we worked on one show idea back in fall, and couple of guys are working on new stuff; I will be working on Enfilade along with my boyfriend/future husband Gerald. My boss already knows some general things about my "Enfilde"; he wants to see more stuff (characters, plots, and solid storyline, etc.), so Gerald and I will start working on it back again. Last night after going to Ann Arbor, we hang out at Gerald's and we were laying next to each other and we talked about solidifying some storylines and developing the characters; it was fun. I'm really happy that Gerald is interested in my story; I'm more than grateful for his help (compared to me, he's a genius when it comes to beefing up the characters and storylines). DBZ has already been done, and it belongs to Akira Toriyama; therefore I don't want a "fandom" to be my flesh and blood. I want my original ideas and characters to be my flesh and blood; that will be Enfilade and someday, I want this to be out there as an animated series. If not, I want it to at least get to a place where it gets read/reviewed by professional agents and companies. I don't give a damn about fandom stuff on DA anymore, what's more important now is that I need to stick to my original ideas and be proud of my own creation. I may end up losing viewers if I stop drawing DBZ stuff, but I have bigger, serious stuff to care for. While drawing some DBZ gift stuff and working on the stuff for the Youmacon, I started drawing some Enfilade characters; I felt pretty great about it. I was going to wait till the Youmacon was over to work on some Enfilade and other stuff, but I may end up just having to do it in the middle of it.

This isn't relevant to the previous paragraph, but stressful long weekdays at work makes Friday night and Saturday really enjoyable. Yesterday was such fun going to Ann Arbor with Gerald and hanging out, treating ourselves with chilled sweets, browsing cool stuff, shopping, and having dinner at our favorite Italian restaurant. We never get bored at Ann Arbor; next time we're going there on the weekend of the annual Ann Arbor Art Fair (last year we missed it for XYZ reasons and I was pissed about it for a long time). One of the best part was shopping at this store called "Orchard Lane", where they sell exotic, earthy clothing, apparel, jewelries, and sculptures. I love exotic themed art (Asian, Indian, and some African stuff); I always tell Gerald about wanting to have multicultural artwork and sculptures in our home when we get married, but he is really picky and against putting bunch of stuff. He says it needs to have a "certain" theme and he doesn't want some random work on our wall or shelves. I told him, "Well, they're all "art" and I love to have some little chunks of every cultures." and he said "Don't make "art" as an excuse! That's a terrible idea! I don't want some random tits (there was a really nice wood carved mermaid sculpture) or scary ass old man's (relief of some Eastern diety) face on a wall!" Well... if he wants some "theme", I got one. I won't say, "it's art" or "I like multicultural stuff"... how about "Little Big Planet"!?